Monday 26 September 2022

Alignment!

 I'm at my sister's home in Pune. 

Today is the first day of Navratri, a while ago I had asked my mom to suggest an Indian Goddess name for my production house. She is sitting on the bed, reading Sanskrit shlok as part of her prayers to the goddess of the day and also suggesting interesting names for my production house. 

There is a Women in Film and TV Florida book next to me, the first page I finally wrote in it says: Production House names. It's almost as if Universe sent me this gift and I didn't know how to use it back in Miami, I carried it with me although not sure how I should break into its powers, the first page, the first word. It was too much pressure, so I only carried it with me, I allowed myself to not feel burdened rather as an emergency book I may use at the right time. I knew the book will have its own time of initiation and apparently, as it turns out. This is the time! Today is the day!

There are 15 Goddess names on the first page itself! Talk about female power! What an auspicious day. I thank you my guides and angels for aligning this. I see you! :)

I am deep in Firefox with 11 tabs open: Looking at artist residencies in India, art with impact, Sundance producing class, writing class on LA library and other resource websites, LinkedIn learning for branded content, American Film Market, Google Keep to store all the interesting websites and keeping a list of some grants and such to apply for in the next cycle and have on my radar.

First Navratri in India after four years of being in US, how incredibly time has changed and the leaf has turned for me, yet the journey is one of resilience. I read a quote on Instagram today: The man who loves walking, will walk further than the man who loves the destination.

I love long walks, and I would rather keep walking and enjoy the view every moment than hurry myself to the top. 

I am in abundance, I invite abundance, affluence, prosperity to my life through love over fear. 

I would love to attend an artist's residency program and experience what it's like to live with artists and have day to day mental health conversations, and create from the awareness and now as a healed soul.

I found this Blogger page today, the last time I visited here is my last post here. As I read through so many articles of mine, I couldn't believe how much I blogged and how inspiring all those blogs are. My writing is so beautiful, positive, inspiring, social, uplifting. Exactly, this is what I want to do even as a film-maker. 

Inspire! Magic! 

My soul journey.

I'm 28 years old today, a wiser Durva than a few years ago, resilient, patient, calm, hopeful.

I am whole. I am in alignment.

Wednesday 13 May 2015

Not a Mother's Day!

It feels so warm to see all the naughtiest friends I know pose with their moms with formal/traditional wear, a sweet smile on their face, one arm over mom's shoulder/hug/kissing her with such beautiful poems and captions for her on this auspicious so called 'Mother's Day'!

Today out of all days in the year is when not a single person posts photos of‪#‎allsetforweekend‬ ‪#‎booze‬ smoking pot, hukka and what not. Feels nice to finally see every person for who they are since those glassy eyes never made it possible!
I never celebrate Mother's Day, should you appreciate your mom just because hallmarks, Google, TV, Newspaper etc tell you to do so!

It's not a part of our culture and tradition,I feel. 

Just because the whole world says, "click a selfie with your mom and post on hashtag #.... " should you do it for those people?

If you know why Mother's Day was first started then maybe you should do something that Anna Jarvis did for her mom, she continued to fight for her mother's goals who was a peace activist! Don't just click a photo with her and paste a caption, ask her what she sees in you, ask her how her days go by when your not around, ask her if there's anything she wants to learn as a hobby or pursue her goal because of the compromises she made all these years, ask her how can you try and become a good kid, sympathize with her! 

Every mother has a vision for her child, we as the youngsters trying to set our foot in this cruel world have our own ideas in our mind it really would shock you to hear what she asks of you, maybe it might not be much maybe it might, maybe she would not even force you to work for it but I'm sure she will appreciate the fact that you considered her important enough to at least ask.
And don't just do it for one day! Do it every other day! 

Do celebrate but understand why such days were started... don't get influenced by Media and say 'Mom I love you' because they're saying its Mothers day. 

I love my Mom I'd die for her and she knows this, I don't need a Mother's Day to confess my love to her!

Are we prisoners who get one meet or a phone call with someone we love out of 365 days and they tell you, "say you love your mom, it's Mother's day today" and so we do it?
The daughter Anna Jarvis herself grew raged when certain companies tried earning profits out of Mother's Day! This is not what she asked for!
Be wise.

Saturday 3 August 2013

May you all have the worst day of your lives!

The story begins with a glamorous night in which I was a volunteer at a publication of a book "Alarm of Silence", there were many honorable dignitaries on the stage like Mr. Pritish Nandy, Padmashree Dr. D.Y Patil, Sir Waman Kendre (Director at NSD), Hon Satyapal Singh(Commissioner of Police, Mumbai), Dr Nitin Kareer (Commissioner of Sales Tax, Maharashtra), Rajvinder Singh and last but not the least Mr. Manik Munde, the shining star of the event!
The event was great but very tiresome! Dressed in a fabulous green colored Punjabi suit, embroidered with red flowers and a beautiful border, paired with heavy long sparkling but bold traditional earrings, a gold necklace and gorgeous brown heels was I standing in the room with such great stars! I was a head-turner there ;) and to be honest I loved the way I was looking as always, so beautiful! 
Anyway, we came home to Vile Parle where Bhushan had invited two of his friends over for the night who were acting very child-like but still I ignored that. He kept asking me whether I wanna go and sit with them and watch a movie in the living room but I said no. I was too tired to even change clothes let alone watching the movie! I dozed off...


"Wakey-Wakey sunshine!!"

Well no one wakes me up with such sweet words.. They're always like, "Get up lazy ass we gotta move" or "Uth Uth thanyala jaychay(Get up get up we have to go to Thane)" "Get up! We're in America!!"
To be honest the last wake-up line was my favorite! :) Anyway my sister wakes me up saying there's no water in the house and that she had brushed her teeth with teensy-weensy bit of water! -_-
I got up frustrated like,"Damn!!" After checking my phones for messages and any missed calls and while talking to Anand on the phone I told him that," Dude there's no water here and I wanna use the restroom so badly but I just can't and now my stomach's aching!" He told us to go to some mall, well I hung up the phone headed straight to my sister and asked ,"what's the plan girl?" 

Just to shorten the conversation let me say that we were screwed! pretty bad..
I got furious and decided to come back home, brushed my teeth with drops of water -_- cursed that area complaining, 'This is Mumbai, how come there's water shortage here!!Arrgghh...'
Packed my bag, changed into old clothes and left the house..

As I was walking out of the colony and searching for a rickshaw I saw another doom...The roads were blocked with traffic! Foolish as I am I still went up to a auto vala and said,"Uncle Parla Station jana hai " He said,"Beta udhar janeko sab raste band hai sab jagah traffic bhara pada hai, aap chal ke jao" I said,"Mujhe pata nahi rasta" He said,"age se first right lo and seedha chalte jao..5 -7 minutes mai aa jaega station" 

Well I thanked him and took a quick bee route towards the station..then I started realizing that this is gonna be the worst day of my life..but let us look at it with a bright side..I learnt that the station is at walking distance from the home, not bad yeah! :)

So, here's how I started looking at the worst situations and took it positively: Only for this day i.e, Today!

Went to the Smart card ticket vending machine and to no wonder it wasn't working..I let out my anger and took a deep breath and started walking to the west end of the station, I was walking down the steps when suddenly I started feeling some tension relieved out of my left foot almost as if somehow air had managed to enter those heels, it felt so good..with a slight smile on my face I looked at my wedges..My frown turned down as I realised that the stitch towards my toes had worn out -_- Arrgghh.... Still I managed to walk toward the ticket machine got the ticket and was limping towards the platform. I wasn't bothered now, I was thinking how could this day get any worse now? Really, that's what I was thinking the whole time.. In the train I listened to songs and was in my own thoughts that I was gonna miss my station but thanks to my sub-conscious mind I got down at Dadar, next train was at 11.58 kalyan fast local..I went to the ladies dabba area and was waiting for the train. 

Suddenly it dawned upon me," Hey I'm at Dadar fucking station man..there's gotta be a cobbler here somewhere so I turned back and was inspecting at the platform tryna find him and to my amazement there was a guy sitting right behind me! Oh the light of hope you're such a bitch I just couldn't find you anywhere! There he was, the hero of my day sitting on a dirty rug with shaggy clothes and messed up hair completely unaware that he's gonna be saving someone's life ! :D  Unsure whether he was a cobbler or not I asked him,"Bhaiyya yeh chappal sioge kya? tut gaya hai" he nodded and I let out a huge sigh of relief and told him," mujhe yeh si ke de do na bhaiyya please mera train aaega abhi 2 minute mai mujhe jaldi jana hai, do ge kya?" He replied in a complete bhaiyya tone,"kaunsa gaadi hai? kitne time mai aaega? acha de do see ke deta hu" In a hurry I gave my shoe to him and he was doing the sewing rapidly..I checked the m-indicator for the next fast train and it was in 6 mins so I said to him that he doesn't need to hurry! he still wasn't slowing down! such is the dedication of a true superhero :) 

The fast train came, Kalyan- Fast, my eyes were looking at the train and then at the cobbler, who was aware that my train had come and was shocked that being a woman I wasn't eating his head shouting at him," Jaldi karo bhaiyya train aa gaya mera" I quickly removed Rs.10 from my bag kept on his little box until then he was almost done. 

This was kind of a filmy scene for me as I had accustomed my mind to the fact that maybe I would have to run behind the train, but it was still there not moving an inch. All the ladies had sit down and were doing their own thing while I was still standing here waiting for the guy to finish the job so I could catch the train. I had almost given up my hope that I would get this train when the beautiful guy said," ye lo..jaldi jaldi pehno....bhago train aa gaya!" Gosh the enthusiasm, the zeal in his voice asking me to run!! I loved it. He gave me the necessary push to wear the heels and "fly" toward the train and I did so...
When I was inside the train I gave out a foolish smile like,' Yayy I won the race, I got the train' One lady was looking at me with such a weird expression that got me realised that dude I need to chill down so I sat down and the train moved... It was as if the train was waiting for me!!
I was searching for the guy on the platform but maybe we had moved from that place so couldn't see him for one last time :) Of course I had to see him since he was the hero of my day...Not even my boyfriend gave me the push I needed but he did! and hence I was thankful to him ! I liked him.. whenever I'm on Dadar station next time I'm gonna thank him, not for the job he did but for the boost he gave me to catch the train and push this day forward and move on!

Reached Thane station and went to KFC took the take away and was walking toward station for the rickshaw stand when someone yelled out on the road," NANDAPURKAR" I was shocked and turned around to see my school friend who had a huge crush on me walking toward me, checked me out and nodded saying to himself,"yeh toh maal ban gayi boss" well we exchanged a few words and I left and was in the line for rickshaws, one guy in red shirt checkered three fourth pants and rainbow colored umbrella tapped on my shoulder asking me," how much do they charge for Manpada, I wanna go to Central Mall?" I said,"umm... Rs.45 to 50" he asked," these auto rickshaw valas go by fare right?" I said,"yeah" he left got in an auto waved me a bye and then I thought I could have asked him to share auto with me and we could have talked a bit, could've made friends with him! Damn my social skills really need some polishing! I got in the auto and at the first signal came the transsexual asking me for money, usually I am scared of them but today I just wasn't, I said to him/her that,'No I'm not giving you money' he/She waited there saying something, I dunno cause I was listening to songs and I didn't give a shit..But by the expression on his/her face I could tell that she/he was mad at me...Then I went into a dream land thinking what could I do to these people to help them..start an organisation or something, it's marketing would be performed by myself in trains appealing to people to contribute towards a social utmost needed change..

Well all this while I had it in my mind that I'd eventually blog the whole day's events! I even told Anand, these things are definitely going on my blog! :) 

I came home ate the KFC burgers bathed watched some tv and now am blogging the whole day's events!
Well this is the longest blog I've ever written!


Hope you enjoyed reading my turn of misfortunes into fortunes.. Next time you realise you're having the worst day and it's just begun, start looking at it positively and I'm sure at the end of the day you'd be laughing for getting mad at silly things! you'll definitely start enjoying your worst day ;) I promise!


Have the worst day !
Adios Amigos :*

Friday 11 January 2013

A warning sign!

A warning sign is when your subconscious mind knows that you're in a bad mood but you haven't got the sign yet, so you get upset at even a butterfly's flap of a wing!
A warning sign is when you get mad at someone completely innocent and you can't control your anger so you scream and shout at them!
You know you've been warned when everything around you looks unhappy ,especially you!
You,then realise that you're way past the line of realizing that you'd been warned! And that you should've just scootched over and avoided this whole mess.

I guess it was always inevitable that if you miss the warning sign, you're gonna end up feeling guilty!
Face it guys, you miss this sign..you miss everything!

Well that's all for today..
Guess my comeback to blogging would prove successful eventually !
Later, amigos !

Friday 17 August 2012

Trying Not to Love You

It's 1.45am here, everyone's asleep. Today, I was feeling very low, Well why not?
When there are dozens of problems in your sick life makes you go crazy.

I was the kinda girl who doesn't believe in love, who thinks being in a relationship is a waste of time, cause love just doesn't exist. 
But I changed for a year and was all Lovey-dovey, but now :(
You see, when the person whom you love a lot just moves away 5000 miles from you for 6 years and doesn't keep contact,hurts!
It hurts... A LOT!
I did not knew there were places inside me that could pain and cause y eyes to water the instant I think about him! I acknowledged it only after this...long distance...thing...

The worst thing is that he just acts like he doesn't care, and he's always like,"I told you I was busy";when he didn't even mention it to me!
How the hell am I supposed to know all such things? Telepathically? I could do that, but there are distance limitations to even that!!
So what are we left with now?

I'm realizing the fact slowly that, I wan't different things in life and so does he. Maybe we are not meant to be! :'(
As hurtful that sounds it could be true cause from the past 7 months we've just been fighting, I mean where is this relationship even going to?

Maybe I could never understand you, maybe you never got me! Maybe you never saw my care behind the things I do and stuff I say! 

My One Question to Everyone out there: Does love really exist?
If it does, then where is it???

Sunday 13 May 2012

Dream come true

What a fantastic day was today!
I got a job at McDonald's. 
I knew I would get it. The idea of earning my own money and spending it for me and my family is so fantastic. Yessss........ I'm so excited and so happy..!!
Got my first day tomorrow.. life is going to be hectic from now on!
I will be earning in dollars ;) 
I'm prepared for it!!!
wish me luck!!
have a great day! :D

Saturday 12 May 2012

Hangover?

Does hangover apply only for people who get drunk like crazy and wake up the other day with a headache?
If it doesn't then, Yes. Today I'm totally Hungover :P
I had the best day of my life yesterday, went out with my friends for shopping and later on to the beach which was so relaxing, sunny and sandy! yeah but leaving that it was such great fun. To top that off we had a 3 hour travel back home! :/ that was a bust cause we were pretty tired and our legs were screaming for a place to sit in the train!
I took my younger brother along with me, all of my friends just loved him and said that he's really matured!
Wow, Not so surprising ;)
After all he's my brother ! :D
Today we both woke up with headache and sleepy eyes, but still we made it through the day by going to music class :P
As for now, we both are busy watching something.. I'm watching my most favorite American sitcom - How I met your Mother !
and he's watching t he umm... ben 10 cartoon ! Yeah he's 13 yr old <3